You are not lost.
God knows exactly what he's doing.
I've always had plans and a dream. I've always known what my gifts are and how I've wanted to use them. I've always been aware of my heart for other people and how powerfully God intends to move through that. Since the beginning there has been a love and a fire that has burned within me. A passion for music, a passion for writing, a passion for people, a passion for animals, a passion for spirituality, culture, and life. A passion to explore, a passion to grow, a passion to change the world. But all of these are mere effect of my one true passion and purpose in life which has always been and will always be to share Gods loving light with everybody.
For years it has felt like I'm wandering in search of fulfilling this dream. I've exhausted myself serving the homeless in Oceanside and the orphans in Haiti. And I've exhausted myself pursuing music to the point where the only reasonable option has seemed to give up on this dream. But if my dream is to help people and to share Gods love and light with everybody, why am I not living in that reality today? It hit me that I will never fulfill this dream unless I learn how to live in it right now. It's not a matter of getting to some place so that I can love other people fully... Sure in Haiti I had more of a platform to love people, sure if I were sucessful in music and touring the world I would have more of a platform to love people. But I realize now every opportunity I've ever hoped to fulfill is right here, right now.
It is so important that in doing what we love, we remember our first love and who/what we are executing our lives for. I have big dreams, to fill big needs through the gifts that God has given me, but I choose to be faithful in answering his call for my life by loving and serving right now in the small things. It may be that he never entrusts me with the big things, but that holds no meaning because as long as I am living for him my life is complete.
I am not lost.
God knows exactly what he's doing.
His light is shining bright within me.
